It's been a few months since I have owned my domain. It has been a while since I have written anything with real substance. That is mainly the part of blogging that I miss the most. I would say that sometimes life just comes along and that becomes way more important than any blog or site that I have managed. After refusing to renew my hosting I soon realized that I had years of posts on there I will never get back. It had then dawned on me that I linked my Tumblr to my domain at one point and anything that gets posted on my domain will relay back to Tumblr. I was able to go back and read a few old posts and it just made me miss blogging that much more. I could link my Tumblr on here for those people who may be interested in reading about my old rants, but I decided not to and to keep that away from this new blog. I wanted this blog to reflect the person who I am today and not the past. A year ago I wouldn't have thought that I would be starting a new blog, new journey, new life. It goes to show that anything can happen, will happen. I have had a very tiring, promising, amazing, yet frustrating year. Now that 2013 is just around the corner I wanted to reflect on a few details of t life that has happened this year.
I became a better version of the person I wanted to be, and that's me. I didn't think that it was possible for someone to change. Someone with my dreaded past, with my horrible habits that ended up hurting the people I loved, and most importantly hurting myself. If I kept up with my lifestyle a year back I probably would end up somewhere stupid. I can't even think of where I would end up. I made a change, for the better. I am sure that I can still be a difficult girlfriend 80% of the time, but I'm positive that I have made a significant difference. Some people like myself need something drastic to happen before change occurs. Unfortunately, I didn't like the drastic occurrence. It was definitely enough for me to step back and take a look at y life from a different perspective, hell from someone else's perspective.
Ryu's learning disability or so they call it has also been tough on our family. In the beginning of the whole ordeal I was scared, frustrated, and angry with the idea that there could be something horribly wrong with him. He's 40 months now and since we've been more involved in his learning he's improved so much. At first doctors believed that he might be autistic. As rough as it sounds I just didn't want to accept that there might be something psychologically wrong with my son. It made me feel like I did something wrong with my pregnancy or his upbringing. I know that's not the case, but the last thing I wanted to hear was that could be the issue. However, that was not the case. Ryu does have a slight learning disability and that could be because in the beginning we never encouraged him to talk. If he pointed at something we would understand him immediately and we beer followed up with a question. We assumed that what we did would cause some type of trauma. With all that said he is doing so much better now. Ryu goes to preschool once a week for his speech program and the teachers get involved and the parents have to be present as well. This way the parent would know how to deal with the situation away from school. Then Ryu goes to a daycare with an actual curricular that meets a specific type of needs and goals. Since Ryu's been attending three times a week we have seen tons of improvement and now he can talk to us. His sentences are broken into pieces but its better than him not speaking at all. He's improved a lot and I can't wait for things to get progress further.
I became a better version of the person I wanted to be, and that's me. I didn't think that it was possible for someone to change. Someone with my dreaded past, with my horrible habits that ended up hurting the people I loved, and most importantly hurting myself. If I kept up with my lifestyle a year back I probably would end up somewhere stupid. I can't even think of where I would end up. I made a change, for the better. I am sure that I can still be a difficult girlfriend 80% of the time, but I'm positive that I have made a significant difference. Some people like myself need something drastic to happen before change occurs. Unfortunately, I didn't like the drastic occurrence. It was definitely enough for me to step back and take a look at y life from a different perspective, hell from someone else's perspective.
Ryu's learning disability or so they call it has also been tough on our family. In the beginning of the whole ordeal I was scared, frustrated, and angry with the idea that there could be something horribly wrong with him. He's 40 months now and since we've been more involved in his learning he's improved so much. At first doctors believed that he might be autistic. As rough as it sounds I just didn't want to accept that there might be something psychologically wrong with my son. It made me feel like I did something wrong with my pregnancy or his upbringing. I know that's not the case, but the last thing I wanted to hear was that could be the issue. However, that was not the case. Ryu does have a slight learning disability and that could be because in the beginning we never encouraged him to talk. If he pointed at something we would understand him immediately and we beer followed up with a question. We assumed that what we did would cause some type of trauma. With all that said he is doing so much better now. Ryu goes to preschool once a week for his speech program and the teachers get involved and the parents have to be present as well. This way the parent would know how to deal with the situation away from school. Then Ryu goes to a daycare with an actual curricular that meets a specific type of needs and goals. Since Ryu's been attending three times a week we have seen tons of improvement and now he can talk to us. His sentences are broken into pieces but its better than him not speaking at all. He's improved a lot and I can't wait for things to get progress further.
There is going to be so much more to write about but I will wait for another rant later.
